what is quiet revolution?

If you are following along with the micro details of my business life (which I know a few of you are nerds for), you might remember that last year, Sept 2021, I launched Quiet Revolution, which was intended to become a monthly subscription program. ⁠

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Well, I ran it and it was always SO MUCH FUN having those monthly conversations, but not many people showed up. That might have been because I made a bold business move of offering it from 2-4pm and not in the evening LOL but I had too many things going on in my evening times, and I need to prioritize down time for myself too. So, you know, some work-life balance stuff happening there.⁠

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So I ran it from Sept to Dec and had a blast but then realized no one was really sticking with it. They would come once, to check it out, but then not return. The truth is, most of my clients are private people: they don't want to be video recorded in a group call as we talk about deep issues. They are into intentional small groups, but not that format of "anyone can join the conversation for X amount of money a month". That just didn't speak safety to get INTO those convos. ⁠

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Anyways, so I dropped the project - although I might tweak it and bring it back later - but in a new format. The thing I like about small business is that you can change it to make it work for you. So obviously that was a flooop but something cool will always happen with the things you started with. Sometimes you think something is good to go, when really it needs to spend some time in the small business studio and not go public for a bit, so it can take it's right form. I'm in that process now with it! ⁠

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SO THAT'S THE UPDATE! SMALL BUSINESS STRATEGY REVEALED!⁠

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How many of you are in small business? Does this kind of learning curve seem normal or understandable to you? How do you relate? What's the thing you are learning through now?⁠

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All my best to all of you. ⁠

Love, Heidi⁠

// Originally posted on Instagram on December 10th, 2022.

i feel boring, i want my career to kick off faster

YUP I feel ya! There is a sea of spiritual business stuff around right now, so it's easy to feel like if you spend 3K "leveling up your vibes" you can manifest things faster too. I get that. I also think some of those people are legit, but not all of them!!!!! Some of them are just riding the opportunity of ppl wanting to be spiritual and self employed and it's not safe.

I can only speak from my experience, but the act of starting your own business is very personal. The blocks I have in my business are the same blocks you have in your personal life. The agitations I had about my friendship problems or my family are the same in my business. The weak points I have in my own character are the same points I have to re-affirm in my business plan and be overt about.

Your business, or your art practice, or whatever it is, is a mirror for your own growth. It's not apart from you, it is you. It's you creating another body through the form of a business. That might sound TMI but it really is that way.

A corporation or a huge business, is not the same as a small business, its very different energetically. The small biz is you basically. If you have a social media, you probably did that. If you have products, you probably designed them. If there's an email being sent off, your fingies probz typed them out. It's not a lot of mystery.

If you have grown enough to be a bit bigger, maybe someone else is writing those emails now, but you are still overseeing them. Your energy is the umbrella over everything. You are the organizing principle.

It's also all your responsibility. Look at where you don't want to grow. Then grow your business in that way. Ask for help, or collaborate, or contract out that area, but address it. As you address your weak points, you strengthen them, and build your foundation to be able to do more, hold more, be stable.

Which allows all the people you are working with to trust you more. Remember you are holding a container for them to have an experience. You want them to have a good experience. Think of your career as a good way to bring your gifts to the world, and for you to gain experience and funding to be able to pay your rent.

xo Heidi

// Originally posted on Instagram on September 8th, 2022.

i talk to people in my head to work out things unsaid

Who else is doing this? Do you feel like you are spiritually working things out with the other person? Are you processing out your feelings?⁠

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Honestly, all of the above. I do all of this. ⁠

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Sometimes I feel like I am indeed connecting with someone's energy and we are able to talk about things that we can't get to in person. Sometimes we have grown apart, sometimes I'm too shy or I can't find the words, sometimes I doubt their reception. Regardless of the situation, I do do this.⁠

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Sometimes it's just me hashing my way through something. Slogging through all the layers, weeding away the distractions to sit with myself in all the complications. It can feel like the root issue is being dodged... sometimes the truth would rather stay hidden, or sometimes the truth is evolving, and maybe it was one thing, but you've learned and now it's this. Either way its confusing, and sometimes you are your best witness. I know for every conversation I have with another person, I've had with myself in a reflective listening phase. I want to be sure I've processed something before I've shared, as I don't want to go in cold if I can help it. ⁠

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Maybe I'm controlling, maybe I'm avoidant, maybe I just like my privacy. I think its all fo them for me. Everyone has their own reasons. But I really enjoy reflecting and getting every last drop of something on my own before I go to someone else and share how I feel. It is all a part a process for me. ⁠

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If I do this processing with myself, most things don't have to be talked about. I've found resolution on my own. As a highly sensitive person, this is sooooooo nice. I need that level of clarity and resolution to feel at peace. Honestly.⁠

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It also cuts down on the level of drama in my life if I work it out myself instead of needing to work it out with other people. I can just enjoy people and bring things up if I need to. ⁠

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This was a bit of a derive. Please let me know if anything resonated with you! I'd love to know what lands, and what doesn't. All I'm doing is sharing my personal experience. Would love to know yours.⁠

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🙂 Heidi⁠

// Originally posted on Instagram on September 4th, 2022.